Hi, I am Nicholas a Year 3 student from NUS pursing a major in statistics. Nice to see you again - the 17 years old nicholas. Around 6 years have passed since I started this blog. Have I grown and become wiser? Year 3 semester 1 just ended last week. This is an important semester for me- the one that will probably decide if I can go for honours year. Year 3 semester 1 has become history. I shall accept the result I get on 24 December and move on from there. I am not confident. Will I do well this semester? I am currently not really enjoying my university life, going through it not knowing what's going on and getting slaughtered by the examinations. I am not feeling happy. Why? It seems that I have no aim in life. It seems that I not sure what I want. It seems that I stoning and letting time passed just like that. It seems that I just randomly finding something to do with no idea what's ahead in my life. I feel lucky in a way too thou. I am healthy; I have a complete family; I am still waiting for my special lady to appear in my life. Hugs and kisses how does it feels like. Looking forward to the day where I will be doing it with my love one. I am curious. But... This day won t come soon.I have no strong feeling for any lady in my life now too. Which mean I have no plan in wooing any lady in my life now. Looks like I will be leaving university and entering the workforce as someone still searching for a companion that is willing to spend her rest of her life with me. For now... I shall continue to search my aim in life ; my passion in life. I will be myself more and not let things around me mould me into someone not me. I wish I will know what I really like and steer myself towards there. Let's hope things will get better. Let's continue the journey to grow and transform into a better person.

Good day all,

ORD lor! Completed Full- Time NS.

Many things to recall and write about during the time as NSF. Will find a time to jot down the experiences soon.

Taiwan Trip

Going Taiwan again. This time alone with friends without family. Let s hope it will be a good experienc

University

This year will the year i enter Uni. Scholarship? Think I should start to think about my future and the path i want to take. A small talk with Edw today really sparks me thinking. Independent ! In time to come I will be a promising adult. Time to step up to the next level nick !

3 hours more to World Cup Finals 2010 South Africa!

Can t believe 20 years have past. I love my Family! Dad , Mum , Edward and Louis. Many things happened in the past 20 years. I look more mature as time passed but then deep in my heart I am asking myself if I am ready for adulthood. Being a teen is like a transition from a kid to the Adult. Am i still consider as a teen.

Learning German is something i try to enrich myself . 3 more weeks to the end of my German A1.1 level. Can i pass the test for A1.1. I have not been working hard for my German. Must do something about it.

Went to Louis Parent Teacher Meeting at VS few days ago. The meeting was not a pleasant one as I didn t expect such an establish School to have such a slip shot PTM. But then I start to worry a little for Louis. VS is a school geared towards for independent learner. Not too sure if he can cope well in this culture. Really hope that I can play a part to improve his grades but then I have been giving myself excuses to slack off. Maybe the feeling that my parents are throwing the burden of guiding Louis education to me turn me off. It seemed that I should be responsible for him. Ultimately I have reflected what the teacher told me to Dad and Mum . Hopefully I can start using some of my time to help Louis soon.

Edward. It has been quite sometime seem i really chat with him . Probably he is bz with his gf or should i say bz with Army. Somehow I am lucky in this case such that i do not have a gf now and do not have the worry of spending time with gf while in army. If it is in my ability to help my brother to have a easier army life such that he can come home everyday in time to come. I will try to help him GET that job.

Driving! Seem to be a little geared towards completing my driving when I see more and more of my friends getting their Licence. One day i will drive my family in my car around.

University life? Should I stay in Hostel. In time to come i will know.Talking about Uni reminds me of the type of job and life i will like to have in future. Can t commit myself to what job I want. But i have a strong feeling that i am gearing myself towards Education sector.

Money Money ! Wish to travel around the world with my friends. Wish to get a digital camera which I like. Want to get an I-phone with data plan. Want to study German. Want to learn driving.

Next year is my 21 birthday. Not sure my next year plan will be like. Will I be in Singapore at my 21 Birthday? Do i need to take my initiative to start preparing my Birthday for 21 like booking chalet. Who are the people that will be attending my Birthday. I will like it simple yet not too simple. I will like it with my many friends but not to too. Just don t know what i really want.

Indecisive! Must start to plan. PLAN and Execute my PLAN!

Regards,
Confused Nicholas

I miss the past. I miss the schooling life. With the company of CCA mates, classmates and friends. Time flies. Although I may feel like meeting up with my friends but then the feeling of meeting up but quiet as there is no topic will surface in my mind. Time changes. Sometime I do feel Lonely. But then the person that make the choice of being lonely is me too as i do not want to step out of the comfort zone and increase my social circle. Having headache more often . Can t find the cause. By the way I must kick that bad habit of giving up so easily. Esp the time when i am working out.I can fill the driving force dimming. I am just like living a passive life now. With no aims and direction. Really need the enlightenment or the compass in my life to bring me forward.

Got my first MC in army! June is coming ! 8 more months to ORD! 2010 is the year which i served as a NSF for the whole year. My fitness is dropping. I feel old and beleive I am looked more matured now. Still as usual lack the confidence and faith in the things i do. Somehow i seemed not to know where i am heading too now. Sign up for a german course which will take up my Saturday Afternoon. This saturday will be my 1st lesson. Go Nicholas! You can do it. Btw i am still pondering about my career options. What do i want to be next time. I am a person with NO DREAMS. I do not know what i want and where i am heading. Let s hope the decision i make now will be the right one. Believe in yourself and you will get the sweet success of the fruit in near future.

This year I am going to be 20! I had a mini class outing with my class yesterday. Watch a movie and played board games at minds cafe.

By the way i am feeling uneasy these few days. Feel a little confused.Perhaps I am feeling a little lonely .

I start to have spilt personalities . Getting a little sensitive and paranoid at times. I start realising i am somehow withdrawing myself away.

Hope I can get my LIFE back! HOPE This year i can start picking myself up!

JIA YOU NICK!

I got my first white hair at the age of 19 . I used to have a strand of white eye brown hair but novwhite hair. The strand of white hair shows the stress i have undergone recently since i entered army. I realised i had been getting more and more stress up recently ever since i got into SISPEC. Probably i not adapting well to the environemnt i in and my interpersonal skills had led me down .

Today had a nice italian meal at my qunt house . today is her birthday! my appetite has not been good recently . Not sure why but is like i eating lesser and lesser. I miss the time I had being a student for the past 10 years. throught the 10 years i met with many obstacles many disappointment , choices hard to make . nevertheless in the 10 years span as a student i have many fond memories .

I am sure i have grown up . At least more grown up then i used to be .

Now i still searching for my dream. What do i really want to acheive in my life .
By the way i have been procristinating for the last few days. That not a good sign.Friends , teachers and family are people that plays an important role in my life. i learn to appreciate them more and realised the importance of my support to them and their support to me in my daily life.No one like to feel that he is alone tackling a problem with no support at all . I hope i can garner more support or feel more support so that i can lead a less stressful life and then NO more growing of white hair at this stage of my life . PS: i feel so paranoid , i only got one strand of white hair and i am making such a big commontion out of it internally .

Wooh finally pass SOC ! Got my passport for 3SGT . I realised something these few days . I look closely at the card my Pri sch teacher gave me before my PSLE . Worry is like a rocking chair it gives you something to do but it won t get you anywhere. Learn to listen to the bird sings and smell the roses. I suddenly realised life isn t that bad for me now . I met failure in army . For example SOC. I struggle to pass it and even feel disappointed and demoralised when i fail to hit the required timing . When i recalled the moment when i gave up half way through the obstacles , it reminded me how weak i really was. I was like virtually dead then . Furthermore being a 'Blur' guy i often am , i feel i don t survive well with my bunk mates as i often drag them down and i have a hard time communicating and going through training with them . But when i met failure i realised actually things aren t that bad. I was just too confident of myself and often assume that i am right and i derseve all the treatment i should get. However i realised i lost an important word in me and the word is HUMBLE. Being humble and modest and the spirte of willing to learn new stuff was what i used to have despite me being blur and slow in learning things. Not sure what factors led me to lose all the important values i have but now i finally see myself more clearly ! This wake up call really hit me hard and wake me up . I feel that i have grown up from the experience i have and hopefully i will become a better person . But i am glad so far i didn t pick up any vice through my army life like smoking and doing illegal stuff. The only thing not so good i may have pick up is my used of vuglar language something when things don t turn out good when i am in army. But then the extend of that is not that serious yet and i dun see myself scolding vuglarities when i am in the civilian world.Things will get better when i go to a new place ! New start and new motivation . First impression last. SO DUN SCREW IT UP! I feel i am a better man now =)

I DON T WANT TO LEAD AN ARMY LIFE! I JUST WANT A SIMPLE LIFE! ....

I miss being a civilian . I know the days ahead will be tougher and i will have to be tougher . Tough times don t last , tough man do! I really hope this end faster!

Hey! I have been feeling not motivatied in my life recently. I want a change ! I want to be more positive and be less negative of my army life . I sure i can make the change casue if i can t my life will get more miserable. Sometime i wonder what i want to work as next time? A MOE teacher ? A HSA regulatory scientist ? I not sure.
Hope i can get my answer soon . By the way , I need to make my thoughts into actions . I seemed to be giving excuse for my plan and going against my intial intention due to my laziness.My stuff are getting messy too , I need order and organisation in my life! I sure I can make that difference , it is whether i took the right steps for the right change and difference or the wrong one that will make me sink . I will do something constructive !

I was happy yesterday =) I read my student blog and got some memories of the stuff i did when I relief teach . I miss relief teaching in my Pri sch . Btw i got a white cap from the sci dept teachers for helping out in the sch events . I was really glad to receive it . Btw i am still adpating to he army life. I must be more discipline . I believe i will do the right things . Go nick !

'Worry is like a rocking chair; it gives you something to do, but doesn't get you anywhere.'

My primary 6 teacher told me this many years ago.

It is so true.

Worries always exist. No matter which stage of life you at.

Believe in yourself, you can make things happen.

Told myself this when I took A levels, to motivate myself to carry on even thought I meet obstacles.

Is not you then who, is not now then when.
I can make the difference.

All these are things I told myself during hockey A div.


I learnt a lot in the last few months. I get to work with my primary school teachers, get to experience teaching. Get to go back to the primary school I studied. The staff there is fantastic! If I were a few years older, I will like to be a teacher in the primary school I relief teach now. Although it can be tough, boring and intolerable at times, but at the end of the day, the sense of satisfaction I get is just great.

April 14. That day will be a new beginning and another phase in my life- NS. I am totally not mentally and physically prepared now. I need to be strong! I like to be STRONG!

My friends! Hope we can keep in contact. My teachers hope u will remember me in time to come. I will remember u. My students, all the best to you, hope u will remember me as a good teacher =)

I want to learn driving, learn more foreign language and their culture. I want to master my English language. I want to learn more chemistry, learn more chemical reactions and the rationale on why certain things are used in this way. I want to learn more on how to keep the place safe. I want to gain more knowledge. I want to be more decisive. I want to be someone strong and independent.

I LIKE to be STRONG!

I finally know the feeling of disappointing people that have trust and faith in you.Although ther person never say anything but ur conscience will surface and this feeling is bad. But i believe u will make matter worst if u just dispair and do nothing to retify and learn from what has happen . ALl these are more important than the mistakes itself. IF u can move on and pick urself up , that is something remarkable and something i call resilent . I will be a resilent person . People makes mistakes and i made mistakes too. I have setbacks but i wont let the setbacks hinder myself too much . I may have lost a battle but i will not lose a war. I will work double hard now so that i wont disappoint anyone anymore.

I have many wishes ! Some came true some became impossible dreams while some still can happen. Friends and Family play an important part of my life. I hope one day i will explore the world with some of my good friends. I would like to go outside singapore and have a look with a group of my good friends. Hope when i get older and richer i will have this capability to do so . And hopefully I have this group of really close friends around me too .

Give me a fish and i will survive for the day , teach me how to fish and i can survive for the rest of my life.

In a war , there is no winner , everyone is the loser . NO ONE GAIN !

Teaching is tough but very meaningful as well .
I really hope i can keep in contact with those people i know now .
I dun wish to lose them!
They are important people in my life.
They bring hope for me and goal for me too.
Sometime i feel i am just too selfish, i always put myself first , with a few exceptions and on certain cases which is anomaly .
deep down in my heart , i knew i am someone who is righteous and has a kind intention . I must TBYD ! Listen to my heart ! lisetn to my conscience ! things will turn out fine and great!

JIA YOU everyone ! JIA YOU to people that read this ! AND of cos , JIA YOU to myself!
I will get my goal one day =)

Improve ! Have faith!

I fell and I will stand up!
I lost the battle but I can t lose the war!
Winners are not those that never failed , they are those that continue and never give up!
Look forward ! Learn from the past ! I will improve on my weakness and regain and strengthen my strength. That will be my aim.

Nicholas

I finally woke up. I found myself. 6 years have passed since I left my primary school. I realised during this 6 years , I changed . I was leading my last 6 years such that I was just going with the flow , trying to blend myself with the people around me , but yet I failed badly .I was living in my own world which is filled with misconceptions and fell badly into the bottom . I was hiding myself after meeting failures during the last 6 years and i didnt pick myself up then.I was then know to be a random person . A person that do not speak as he speaks , a person who is not motivated to learn anything new with all my heart. I lost my concentration skills which i have when i was a kid.I felt that i have spend my last 6 years rotting away.Although i was schooling but then I was not there , i was hiding myself in my own cave.

Now I have finished my studies , waiting to be enlisted into the army . This is when I start to have reflection of myself . I want to come out of that cave. I want to see the world . I want to be the pri 5-6 kid i was many years ago . A trustworthy person that can concentrate and focus , a person that people can look up too when they need help.So my resolution for now , is to LEARN . TO learn many things that i can learn in my last 6 years. I want to learn driving , i want to gain more knowledge, i want to have a sharper brain which i once have, I want to help people , I want to LEARN , I want to improve myself.I will start from today. Anw take care teacher . u are the one that make me realised all these although u maynot realised it , but it s a good reminder for me . Thanks for the trust u have on me, the belief that i am someone great . Hopefully i can adapt to the new world , the environment I in now which expects more from me compared to the past. Coming out from my cave and entering the developed and exciting world which i must adapt to. It s time for me to equip myself with knowledge , if not i will be a weak that needs to be protected , I want to be the person to protect others . Take care my friends , take care my teachers , take care my family . for now, i will think before i speak /do , I will slowly find myself back . HAVE faith ! Believe in yourself. You can do it !

Today registered for basic theory test for driving .

Prom is just tomorrow, excited? not really
hopefully i will have nice smile tomorrow.
I felt i under dress , but then is OK , at least i feel i look good in that attire .

I dun know how to style my hair, loll that means i will have to just leave it like how it looks normally.

MUST take many photos , is rare that people wear formally .
took a photo after i cut my hair last Thursday.

Anw life is full of excitement and i am a really lucky person , friends , family and a healthy body .Must be thankful of what we have and hopefully i can achieve more in my areas i lacking in now. I Must GROW UP! BE more ALERT , MORE confident and more CAPABLE !

Go nick , strive to be the best ! INNER DRIVE!

Out of a sudden I felt sad today! SAD =( Can t really answer the questions why am I sad ? maybe I am just leading my happy life these few days after the A level then now the hormone for happy finish already so i feeling sad now.


Finish getting my prom stuff, just a plain long sleeved shirt black pant leather shoe and a silver tie.

Testimonial match with the J1 over, won 4-0 with the help of the super old seniors.
Then I played more for the girl match than the guys one , only got 4-5 j1 girls came only so we just go in to fill the numbers. It was a relaxing game. Then in the night go back to NYP with ter , the standard of hockey there is much higher . My passion for hockey fading, not as strong as be4, but I believe I will still carry on to play hockey as i know the feeling will be back soon.

Just like what coach SAM once told me : There are many things in life that catches ur eyes, but there are only a few things that catches your heart .

Like what Sam always said: Life sux!

Actually there are things i want it but then i just dun have the confidence to carry on. People need assurance, encouragement. Just like my hockey life, my study life and my social life, all of them need support and motivation to carry on. Be it from people or even from ur inner self.


HUMBLE! A word my pri 5 math teacher left with me. Humble a word my Pri 6 teacher remember of me. Really happy to see my pri 6 teacher , i really feel like having a long chat with her , really want to tell her about what happened for this 8 years. And of cause I want really really happy tat she can remember me too =D


I may want to become a teacher next time, a teacher that can transfer knowledge to my students, a teacher that can touch their lives and share their troubles.
I also want to be learnt more about Econ, econ really teaches me to make choices and to have a better perspective of what is going on in this corporate world.


And of course my life long partner too! Wonder when I will find one too .being in a 10 years boy school didn’t really aid me in this. hopefully she can take initiative to give me the confidence to continue , bad experience and from my friends experience tell me how such things can bring torture and suffering to yourself.

Went to a hair saloon bro Edward introduced. It was a good place and the person tat cut my hair really made me feel safe under his hands. I still took a photo of myself after i cut my hair. Loll. It was a good memory that left behind me. Although I feel I look blur in the photo.

Anw random is the word often associate with me, and of cause the word blur. All these are negative stuff. But some nice people will tell me this ignorance is a blessing. I agree too, but ignorance can also lead me to failure in many areas of my life.
I am also an very inquisitive person that like to ask many questions, but some maybe just some irrelevant question but then I just like to know more.

Prom really makes me vainer. More concern of how I look. But den again, I am still myself. No matter how ugly or good looking am i , I am still nick !
Anw in life family friends and teacher are people that plays an important role in your life, it is just like this analogy, if u got a really big house but u dun have any family members , will u be happy?

When I flip through my hockey book I took in my journey of picking up the skills, saw this phrase: Don t go through life without goals.
I still remember this phrase; this phrase is the quote I told myself to work harder so that I can score goals in hockey. And of cause I did it in the A div by scoring the equalizing goal and the 1st goal for my team in that tournament. It really bring memories back to me

Still got one more phrase : Is not now then when , is not u then who.

I remembered zen hong use this phrase during the under no roof after i told him this phrase which my coach told me during one of the matches. I enjoy spending time with my buddies in class in the under no roof , it was an enriching experience , and of cos our beloved leader Kw. still remember i ran around shouting like mad to complete my forfeit them ,dun noe what gave me the gut to go tat too.

Think i will miss the class esp the class guys, my j2 life was more exciting and fulfilling i felt. J1 is the year i face many hurdles and of cos one of the toughest year i had in my 18 years.

I hope my A level results dun fail me. I dun want to give my parents a shock again.
even if i do i hope it will be a good shock and not a nightmare for them.

Achieving excellence is about taking small consistent steps.
belief !
impression!
How ppl look at u and the impression they have on u will affect your success.
Start to believe in the people around you, give them the support and encouragement to continue.
And in time to come, we will blossom and become a beautiful flower tat beautify and bring the people a better world.

A level over! just came back from a soccer game with my secondary sch cca mates. Just ended my class chalet yesterday.It was fun ! But now i am sick! feeling breathless coughing ichy nose. next fri testimonail match .wonder how will it be like? anw planning the next class outing. wonder wat will i do . I want to relearn Fishing ! bro edward must really help me. regret no doing all the simple staff last time. now need to learn from bro edw.last time i go fishing bro edw dad and uncle adrain will help me with the preparation ,den nick jus cast the rod can alrdy.Now i 1 to really learn all the preparation work. den can teach fren and have a fishing trip. terence say 1 to go fishing long ago alrdy . see is he joking a nt lol, always tell me his ambition is to be fisherman.anw feeling some confusion too. aiya relationship is jus so werid. hopefully i can sort out myself soon. but now my aim is to get my prom staff , plan class outing , train up for testimonail match . relationship . haha . let see 1st , i dun hope for too much too but just at least remove my internal struggle somehow. lucky i got one good fren kenneth to hang out with . feeling so bad to be sick ! pls take care . I am really dying . hope i can get well soon!

I feel like my brain like being eaten by some worms growing inside.
getting forgetful recently.
Fitness also very bad.
can t run for long!

My bro gt a new walkman phone. I am so jealous of him.
Don t know why my conscience tell me not to request for a new phone cos i going into army soon.Which mean not worth the money!Anw i planning to invest on one new MP3.Probably buying Zen stone plus.

ANW i quite jealous of some people from other CCA their junior treat them to some farewell party . I dun even noe much of my juniors except for a handful.Anw sam Sweden for 6 month . i think he departing on 13 august. Wonder anyone will orgainise a farewell party for him a nt? Anw must rmb to ask MS Choy book the year end hockey chalet. Those hockey ppl that see this must take note . If not wont have one. Anw i feel quite dumb writing about myself for SGC. lol

Must MUG!
cannot regret and feel sad next year when i get my A lvl result.
Focuss on my next target PRELIMS!
but i still slacking now.
but i feel a better now.
cos at least i feel some stress.
cannot be like O lvl whihc i dun feel tat stress until the o lvl is a few days and i feel no difference in my lifestyle after and be4 O lvl.
Must work hard and reap the fruit of my hard work =)

Finally Over!
tough and torturous week has passed
My mid year is a bad one. I felt disappointed.As i know my result will bring Disappointment to teachers and bring worries to my parent
However all this is jus the beginning
A level I am coming!
I DONT WANT TO REPEAT A LEVEL !
I WANT TO GO UNIVERSITY!
SO I WILL IMPROVE MYSELF AND NOT DISAPPOINT MYSELF AND BRING DISAPPOINTMENT TO OTHERS!
In A MENTAL STATE OF LOST!
MAYBE I WAS NOT PREPARED BY THIS MID YEAR!
MAYBE I JUST WEAK in My SUBJECT NOW!
I WILL NOT GIVE UP!
Strive on NICK!
CONTINUE AND U WILL GET WHAT U WANT!

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

Questions:
1. What disappoints you the most?
Is to hurt my friends and family members

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
I will stay in spore a safe country and if I really want to go to a tour I would not like to go alone and I think I would like to go Disneyland in America and experience snow which I never see before in my life.

3. What’s your favorite thing to do?
Stone think of nothing and relax myself.

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
With money does not guarantee happiness, but having sufficient amount of money is needed to obtain happiness.

5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
To be a person that can bring happiness to people around me especially my family members.

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Yes at least for now, for my wonderful parents providing me with the basic thing I need to survive.

7. What’s the most regretful thing that you’ve done before?
to be a stubborn boy that scolded my parents when young.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Keep quiet. Save most of the money so that when any problem surfaces that need money I can solve, buy some wants and then lead a normal and simple life.

9. What is the most embarrassing thing that happened to you recently?
Hit the pool ball in a game when it is actually not my turn to hit (cause I was not day dreaming)

10. What is the best moment of your life so far?
To score 100 marks for math when I was primary 5

11. What makes you happy?
Everything is going fine with people around showing concern and care to me .

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
People who like to sow discord between people

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
A good husband, good son, good dad, good brother

14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
To be able to heal people and restore things which are important but destroyed

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
To have my family

16. What do you do when you’re alone?
Stone think of nothing and relax

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
My indecisiveness

18. If you could turn back time, which period would you like to return to?
Turn to the time when I am still a baby. Cause I feel that baby has no worries and much care and concern is shown to them also. But the only disadvantage is the being not mobile and having the joy of being mature with friends.

19. What is your least favourite animal?
Barking dog

20. Are you happy with your life now?
I am happy with my life now but I still can be happier.

June starts

Catch up period starts !
overseas aunt and cousin coming next wed.

bro edw went for ABCDE camp.
going for my medical check up next thurs
wonder how will it be?
haha until now i still dun noe how to go the check up place.

I uses Vampire King to play hockey now.
Feel that I still a beginner that why i use that stick instead of GX 5000

My class girls seem to be every excited with the A div basketball match actively talking about it in class blog. lolz

Anw have pepper lunch last friday with kai wei , ying hui and mun chee.
Haha. kai wei sneezing away there. Someone thinking of u rite no the pepper . lolz

Saw zhao and with his usual jamie gang.

Saw mr stickman and his home friends.
His classmates lah =p hee hee..

Feel like eating subway . Although it is quite expensive but I still end up eating pepper lunch which is equally expensive. lolz. Cos I suit what my classmates want to eat. See kind nick rite. If not will see joshua at subway =p heehee..

Anw heard some ppl finsih selling his under no roof house soon, only left one.
lolz
I sell none.
haha i think one day i need to go meet the orgainisation to return the house. If what joushua tell me is rite. haha.

anw here a photo my class took on I and E day with my short hair.
lol i think i took better with short hair rather then the long messy hair i have now. =p

Diappointments....

I have disappointments!

But i will cherish what I have!

Time flies!

A level this year must catch up.
Final lap.

I must catch up !

As for my disappointments it has passed.
Look forward , Cherish what I have.
Be humble , be quiet.
Lead a happy life!
Learn to look at what u have and take chances.
Dont let it go to waste.

I miss hockey life.
A life which give me motivation and teach me many valuable lessons !
Now apply it to study.
As for my daily life,enjoy what i have. Enjoy the friends classmates teammates teachers family i have.


Go Nick!
Well done Nick!
Enjoys yourelf Nick!

5 month had passed.
Monday coming soon!
it maybe our last match!
Only a win will get us through.
We get ourselves into this situation
now we must try our best to get out .
Stronger firmer nick!
Composure will bring u through.
Anw gd luck to the girls.
U all are great.
one more step to top 6 tml.
We will live with no regrets on monday!
Anw DON t worry be happy!
If i enjoy my game , my team enjoy the game.
Then We will be there!
=)
Anw i looking forward for a hockey chalet.
SOmeone organise it .
=p

my team is mute!
We need to talk more.
encourage more.

I must be focuss.
Improve .
Dun get distracted anymore.

Is now or never!

No more chances!
look high up!
stand up straight.

Smile nick.
Cause i know u won t have that emo look again!

=)

Remove the bandage,
see the doctor,
to no suprise there was something there,
althought i hope it will just disappear
But at least the doctor say it is healing well.

today dismiss super early, no hockey trg, no self trg on my own in sch.
this type of feeeling is like so long nv experience.
Some of my hockeymates say they felt they have go back to the PAE time when they dismiss very early.
haha. saw stanley and qing hui going thome after sch, as usual stanley joking and serious look. he say he going qing hui house to visit his toilet , i dun think so ba, what he trying to say is , we dismiss very early. later after every one left, i felt like having a movie trip . i think one day the hockey team can have a moive trip. and a trip with both hockey girls and guys. plus i think they super happy now with their 2 wins =). jia you girls i think u all will do us proud.

then i left home and sleep.
very long nv have dream when i sleeping alrdy.
i just had one.
but dun noe good or bad.
i dreamt that in sch i walk into some room accidentally then i quickly left,
then terence saw it and go inside.
then i left and return cause i dun 1 terence to face the problem alone.
then the teacher booked both my name and his, i was feeling angry caused i felt i didnt enter the room on purpose and also i felt bad for terence , cos he jus went in like that, like trying to protect me some how, but i realise after the teacher book us we have very different reaction. terence jus accept it that he is book and left. then i keep on explaining to the teacher , i even started speaking quite offensive as i explain further. cos i feel both of us does not deserve this then i woke up alrdy.

funny dream
i will perform like the last JJ match.
mus refelct on the last JJ match
althought i feel i improve alot and play well the last match.
i must still refelct and maintain my standard of play.
I make the different!

Congrat hockey girls.
won 2 matches alrdy.
THurs meeting acs I.
I make a different.

tml removing the bandage.
wonder how big is my cut
will it leave any scar.

Wonder how my life will be without hockey in future.
I think i will miss it

Anw when am i going the next level?
sam ask me if i level up today after teaching me some skills individually

then i told him i think still same level .
haha.

feel i quite distracted these few days.
NO more nonsene.

FOCUSS!
do my work.
start my thinking circle now!
but i can only do that after i complete some basic work.
Then i will start thinking and visualise !
reflect on my mistakes!
You will see a stronger nick !

i gt disfigured today. must recover soon. cos if never recover mean i cannot play nxt thurs acs (I) match. cos tt wound cannot touch water. =(
Anw today I 18 yrs old!

I scored my 1st goal.
A deflection
A equaliser
A hope for my team to come back

WE eventually won 3-1.
We could have won more

we must work harder
Improve ourselves

Anw thanks 06/07 for my birthday present.
It is nice

Today I disfigured myself
My head clash into the keeper helmet at one on one situation
then i gt this birthday present from the keeper

haha .. mum tell me bro louis gt a present for me.
I wondered what is it.
he coming back soon .
i will know wat is it soon.
=)

need to catch up with my work.
But today my birthday.
I slack for another day .
start my catching up mission asap.
;)

hi

Started wearing contact lens.
But still trying to get use to it.
Anw i think i going to wear it for this 2 months only.
Benson get into army alrdy
saw pak and liang pei yesterday
brought back my memories of the cheer leading!

today ran 8x50 m.
aiya.
I felt bad
Cos we gt 3rd.
I believed our hockey team can do much better.

next sat i will be 18 yrs old alrdy.
18 yrs passed really fast!
anw let work hard!
i l0ve my team and we will fight as a team in the A div.
Flying V.
4321 321
Happy birthday
GLK
Mr stickman
PR terence
Guai Lan captain =p
But actually he is really really a good captain =)
He will lead us to fight togehter.

Let reach to our goals!
BELIEF
Dream
We will be Champions!

Hey

jc 2 , big year!

Manage to found some of my jc 1 photo and sec 4 photo.
hAppy memories

Anw i heard A div fixture clash with Sports day.
WE will be missing sports Day!

March holiday over.
start of term 2.
Now no chinese timetable shorten yeah

Miss the class chalet =(
many scandals now!
hee hee ...

my jacket number 6-462539

Nice jacket

Survive today.

Play on field
Then on the D pitch really help

LEts enjoy the game I like .
I like playing in my position now.

Anw go hockey guys!
our effort will be shown on the pitch!

ps:GLk evcuation action today!
Hope their mission complete.
Get well soon for leg and hand injuired ppl
Recover!
Take care for the rest and myself.
protect urself



=p

mistakes
mistakes
mistakes

Disappear
Disappear
Disappear

Play the game I Like!
forgot
And do better

Be alert
Be focus
Be confident

Belief
Opinion
view
Assumption

Ho
Ho
Ho

For my master!
Control the Id in me
Improve
Enjoy

Wake up
Wake up
Wake up

Chak de
Chak de
Chak de

The whole is more than the sum of its part!

COMMUNICATION!

you beleive you can and that why u can do it!

Humble
Humble
Humble

Do your best !
watch urself
and u will get the destiny!

-6-

If u want to have fruit , U must have the seed first.
If u want to go to the toilet first,U must realise u need to go to the toilet 1st!
A level result just release
I dun want to have the same feeling as that time I Get my O level next year.
Must work hard!

A division coming in one month time.
My left ankle slighly sprain
Take a break for a while hope it will recover


Anw completed my napfa.
Gt gold
So dun need to enlist early.

just brought a Red PSP.
Terence tell me is a drug is a poison.
haha.
I will take note .

I love to HockeY!
I looking forward to get my number 6 jersey soon!

SmileZ Nick =)
Belief urself
Do simple things
I know Nick enjoy playing hockeY!
Enjoy playing with my team!
Competition coming soon.
I want to perform well in competition
Do well with my team
Get our goals
GET MY GOALS!
After that i going to miss the life with hockey
Cos i know after that i will be bz getting ready for my A level!
So i will work harder and cherish the time with my team mates
All of u are my good team mate
My good buddy
Anw hope Guo Rui recover soon
Anw i Belief i am a gd short Distance runner
confident short distance runner nick
I will use my ability in short distance running in hockey match.
I belief i can outrun other team defenders ,beat them and get my goals
eat more sweet Joshua
Lots of term test coming soon
must work hard and not fail it.
dont want to feel bad after getting back result
Anw i feel my mental improving
Sam field training has effect
I can endure longer when feeling fatigue
and i will improve my basic and do well
and be a Confident forward
Temper , smile ,frustration and composure
Ni.... smile Nicholas =)

WOoh!
CNY is here.
3 days passed
Today dad went fishing
caught some fish
ANw i gt a short hair now.
I think i look nicer with short hair.
lots of work to catch up
1st day vist relative
2nd day go johor
3rd day slack at home
Now try to do some work to survive tml
Planning to buy a Psp soon!
ANw v day coming.
Sian I free for that day now so far.
Wonder how should i spend it
ANw my wish for this year is to Do well for A level
not to be disappointed with my hockey A division result
Which means i must work hard!
Go AJ hockey!
anw i hope edw joined Hockey !
althought is still up to his choice!
anw let see.
Soon will know what CCA he join!

Coughing Coughing
Health not so good!

Friday help out in the game master it was fun playing the games. Guo rui class manage to get 3 postion in the final and the only class that went to the final seem to be bullied cos 3 Vs 1.

Saturday went for Value workshop.
I was the only class leader from my class there.
Charlie overslept , Xanthe went for red cross course.
Anw i miss the hockey trg on tt day.
Anw no one knew the old 7 values AJ has.
Now revised there is 5:
Intergrity
Commitment
Learning
Social conscience
Synergy

During the break I Went with stanley and terence to have a look at the trg.
Glad to see sam there.
Then we brought along a sandwitch for him too =p

Anw My value workshop group quite interesting , at least didn t make me feel bored there.Anw all the best For AJ drama. Hope u all get wat u all want for the SYF.
ANw mistook someone in my group as the gamemaster participant i saw on friday.
Hahas.then today saw her again . Then was thinking who is she? is she the gamemaster participant or the table tennis girl vice cap i knew from the value workshop.
Haha.. so i jus kept quiet first.Then she ask if i how my hockey trg yesterday.
THen i conculde she is the value workshop person.Haha.But I was call a slacker cos i told her i didnt went for trg cos it alrdy end. I went J8 and have subway with my team mates.Anw i start to realised i like know quite little people in AjC
Cos at the start of the year lots of the J2 look like ppl i nv seem be4.
Haha. Hope i know more of my school mate this yr . =)

Bro edward gt 9 for L1R5
5 A1
2 A2
1 B3

Congrats

oh ya my youngest brother Louis joined softball

He now pri 5.
next year will take PSLE then edward A level

This year will be me.
Taking A level

Won NJ in friendly yesterday.
But i still on goal drought .
I want to score GOALS!
Anw i need to work harder and play more.
Still not composed enough when playing games.
I think this may be due to lack of match experience.
Basic and fitness Important!
I waiting for the day to score goals!
It will be coming soon as I believe I can Do it!

Sian , my ipod video got stolen in AJ.
I went out for lunch and left my ipod outside the Co room there.
then after that i came back. I was shocked.
Shocked that my bag was open
too my worst nightmare.
my ipod was gone . GONE!
Wonder who did that to me.
now , i want to save money and get a new one.
But this time round i think i get a zen stone plus i happy already.
But i think from the rate i going now I can only get it on christmas.
Cos my daily allowance is not regular one.
SO this make it hard for me to save money.
Anw saw a big big lizard at the sch drain on sat trg.
So dun be shocked if u see one there.
actually i also saw bat when i in j1 also.
near the canteen there the shelter.
Anw now i everyday go sch with bro edw.
hope he stay in Aj . then i go to sch with him
anw not sure wat cca he joining.
but i think he will go for the one he like ba.
J2 life started
tough luck
I miss the life with my ipod.
i hope my birthday someone can gif me zen plus.
or i have to save up i think it cost around $99.
but i still think i wont have it soon.
=(
oh ya gt my gx 5000
it will be my partner and bring me to greater height in my phase of enjoying hockey!

2008 my year for A level !
My aim for the year is to put in effort in the things i do!
Got a new hockey stick.
haha
I am broke after that.
Finally i can play pool again.
wooh.
But still must be discipline and do work.
Maybe meeting kenneth to play pool tml.
I want to work harder and become a better hovkey player.
And also study hard to get good a level result next year and be able to get into the course i like in University nxt time.
Anw heard my uncle got into hospital today.
hope he get well soon !

Retest coming really soon!
Sch reopening soon!
I definely miss hockey !
It caught my heart!
Bro edward gt admitted into AJC for PAE.
lolz.
He same sch with me for like 12 yrs?
Anw SL completed.
Chrismas coming soon!
I going to work really hard these few days.
Come on NiCK!
=)

We will come back stronger!
Anw SL going smoothly!
Yeah!
enjoy the games play be4 start of SL!
anw i think i need to train my basic!
and seize my opportunity!
I will play hard for my team!
AJ!!!
oh ya retest coming soon!
must make sure i can pass and promote.
I don t want to disappoint myself again!

Hey!
I think I should ask this question to myself now!
If I am unhappy.
What action should i do?
Must start to ponder for the answer and make myself happy.
Finaly 1st day of Sl over.
it was quite smooth!
But the preparation was not done enuff!
Good start!
let move forward 06\07!
My oversea cousin coming tommorrow!
hope and bless them having a safe trip to my house!
and i Like HockeY.
btw I must work hard!
STUDY!

Hey !
1 month after the end of Pw .
I still the same old me.
Lucky!
people around me are helping me.
Giving me reminder.
I Don t want to disappoint anyone.
But i need to take action.
anw watch game plan on sunday!
that show had a moral.
it tells people not to give up
Never say NO!
Hockey getting tougher
Sl coming sooner
Studies lagging behind.
anw happy birthday
Brother louis!

=p

I must go back to my basic.
Really bad at my basic.
Pushing sweeping and HITTING!
My timing really bad .
Need to work hard.
Do more the dancing drill.
nicholas i think u gt bad eyes leg coordination.
loll
HAha.
But i dun noe when I will do tt.
AnW study hard!
going trg tml.
Anw i really hope I got 4 lungs
But dun be greedy 3 euff alrdy.
like tt can store more air and run more.
loll
now i must tell myslef

JUST DO IT!

DUN procrastinate.
But i feel have a rest tml or SAt then go full swing!
loll
=p

Today went back to sch in the morning for SL preparation.
aiya..
Wonder if SL clash with CCA how?
Dun feel like missing CCA , but sadly I am the SL rep.
Anw thanks those that is coming for all the 4 days!
Really appreciate ur cooperation.

Anw jeremy came late for the SL prepration.
Y come late.u teaching us one.Then end up we just sit there and slack.
But everything went smoothly.

Then went for GP lecture .
Lots of hw for holiday.

then went to AMK mac and have lunch.

sunny Day!
Then run 6 Km.

But at least my timing starts to improve already.
maybe cos hot many of us cannot take it.
but guo rui pace quite good.
Nxt time I run behind him.
let him be my pacer.

tml will be a packed day
Sianz maybe cannot meet SAM to go buy hockey stick!
we must work harder.
anw today quite unlucky.
my ball went out of control and hit somebody.
sry!
Hope there is no serious injury.
Really feel bad when heard the OUCH!
Anw i going broke already!

aiya.. lazy bum dun 1 to go and work.
anw I think the retest hockey and SL more impt to me now!
Maybe after A lvl i will go work.
ASk me along if there is job.
=p

Anw saw rainbow today at training. Afther the hot sunny day.
Hope my life will be like tt too.
See the beautiful rainbow after the hot sun.

AS u grow older, more problems will surface.
I don t really like this year!
Dunnoe Y?
But I did enjoy some of my time , but the problem I met and my loved one faced are torturous too.
Look towards to a better future.
Anw my oversea cousin and their family coming to spore on the 27 nov.
Can see the eager face of my edward waiting for them to come.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
I really feel like shouting now!
I went kia house with terence yesterday!
met lifu and we jerome and we played majong!
It was fun!
Anw meeting lifu there all again nxt week in my sec 4 class chalet.
Meeting lots of my sec 4 classmates wonder how are there.
anw from what i heard none of my sec 4 classmate retain.
TT is a good news.
I must work hard for my retest and dun be the xtra!
Anw KIA gt 95 for math in his SAJC promo exam..
ZAI !
Meet kenneth yesterday too!
hahas..
lot to talk yesterday!
Anw he gt some really good tiles for majong tt I nv get be4 in my life!
WAit !
I will play pool soon again.
After My revision.
I will win back my bubble tea.
Loll
My cough still there.
but much better.
Really bad at recovering from sickness!
Anw took photos with my 2nd bro edw 3rd bro louis and mum today!
It has been long since we take picture together.

Hope everyone I know will be blessed and I can lead a simple and peaceful and smooth life!

~nicho|as~

Hey happy that my cough is not so bad that i cant go training.

Anw today didnt did too much on phyiscal . only ran 2 rounds warm up.

But still feel very tired somehow..

Friday PT comfirm super tough.

stanley abit angry today!

But it is normal for him to be angry witht the situation he face.

WE will work as a team one day.

Although we still long way to become a very bonded team!

WE CAN DO IT!
BELIEVE IT AND WE WILL BECOME ONE SOON!

HEY!
argg!
bad news ...
I am unwell again..
Coughing!

aiya , sure cannot get my fitness back if i keep on get sick.

My 4 km and 6km timings sure not going to be good ...

I don t want to get lap by people..

so must work hard...

I will work harder!

To get WELL!

6 Km run!
My fitness still as bad as usual!

Today we were ask what postion we want to play!

Loll i can t really decide where I want to play.
maybe as forward pairing with vince?
Centre Midfield with Terence near me.
loll cos terence live near me , can easily meet him to train.

I haven t start my revision yet!
NICHOLAS WHAT U DOING?

hahas!

I will study !
But don t noe when.


Just dO it!

Go towards my goal.
And SCORE It!

HeY!
Finally i can start my revision after the end of OP and chinese!
But sadly i didnt =(

I accidentally scratch my younger brother face while playing with him.
Now his face there gt a line of my scratch!
Hope he recover soon.
Dun really like the feeling of giving my louis tt on his face .
Sorry bro!

Sadly my sickness nv recover!
still gt the blocked nose and a little flu.
it takes really long for me to recover!

Went back to sch to play hockey for a while today!
really a while , cos it rains!
Then saw dasmond and Azfa.
They seem to be happy after their OP!

Finally i met jeremy for dinner!
Although not very filling !
but i enjoy the time .
Cos i dun really feel like starting my revision yet.

NICHOLAS DUN WASTE UR CHANCE !
TAKE IT!
MOVE ON!

I MUST START MY REVISION!

PW ended!
JC 1 life ended!
Played soccer under the rain today!
Didn t do well for Pw.
stumble too much!

feeling lost!
Mug Mug and mug.
Wonder can i Do that a not.
what i want to do now ,
REST!
Prepare for the War!

HEY!
chinese A lvl over!
either A , B or C?
I feel tt it wil be a B.
It was not my best paper.
But i will be elated if i can get a A.
PW coming to an end .
Yeah!
PW is really tortorous.
I really hate PW, not because of my topic,
But due to some personal reasons.

My mood is swinging here and there.
I looking forward to my hockey trg!
I want to be an outstanding hockey player.
But i must first tackle my studies.

Life is full of changes.
Friends can push u forward or push u backwards.
6 is my lucky number.
But it has not bring me luck for long!

anw i still sick now. Blocked nose and cough.
My immune system really weak.
I want to recover!

Bad timing to get sick now!
Infected throat , Blocked nose.
I think i have slight flu.
REally hope someone can take care of me like a patient , then i go and sleep .
Then hopefully when i wake up , everything will be fine ! I am back to my healthy self.
However things are just not like tt!
anw sch coming to an end.
Tml will be last day of sch and this signifies the end of my JC 1.
This year has been a toturous years with many obstacles in my path.
However with some element of luck and effort i manage to be given a chance and led back to the path where everyone is.
Although i failed my promo this time round, but i am still slightly happy that i enjoy my times in hockey !
I enjoy the time I have when I played pool with my friends.
However such enjoyment must be reduced now.
I must build up my foundation so that I will not let the college down,
I am on the same path with the others and eventually for myself,
so that i can enter the University and the course I want.
As for being the class leader of my class.
It was quite a tough job for me, but the friends I met in DE camp really widen my social circle and act as a source of help in need of trouble.
ALthough i felt that the class leaders of my class including me and not very effective leaders, but at least we try to make a effort to become better.
I miss my time being the class leader of my PAE class.
It was fun and I felt that I was an effective leaders as many outing was oraginised and I was look upon as a leader . We even have majong session at my PAE classmate house , and the encouragement from them during my dark period really push me on.
We even have a class chalet! even though i was having a flu tt time. I still went for the chalet as i enjoyed being together with my PAE classmates.
Hoping for an hockey chalet or a class t shirt or jacket.
I miss my cheerleading days too.
I miss liang pei laughter , pak confident voice ,big nicholas joking talk and lan guan stunning moves.All the best for their A lvl!

However this year my health was bad, this is the year where i fall sick the most.
Hope it will be lessen as the feeling of sickness is one of the worst feeling someone can have esp u must face it independently !

Arg!!!!
I must Get well soon!!
Work hard nicholas!
Perserve!

Today ,
not in a good mood!
I think i need to reflect on myself !
Realised my running deproved,
Then study not good
Then lots and lots of trouble or unlucky staff happened!
This is going to be my toughest year in my life so far compare the the pervious one!
But I will endure and look forward for the future where I will not regret and will improve and become a better person after these hurdles.
I must not let myself down.
I can do it!
I have the reslient!
Just do it!
I will have my goal in mind!
I will score the goal!
as i believe
Don t go through without goals!

~nicho|as~

Hey!

promo result out!
I did badly!


Monday will be the deciding day!
The day where my fate will be known.

Anw yesterday I went with the hockey team to Delta to watch hockeY match!

Coach Sam played well and scored the winning goal against Team Malaysia!

I was happy to see my Sam scoring goal for our country!
Really proud to have him as my coach =)

Chinese A lvl
PW OP

Coming soon

Yeah!
finally the torturous PW is ending!

Let s work hard for chinese!
Get the grade u deserve!
don t let urself down!

Anw I made a promise ! I will not play pool in the holiday, till my result become better!

Go nicholas!

hey ...
Our CDP programs to East Coast Park.
After a few planning sessions i had with Charlie and Xanthe For the sandcastle building . We finally went to east coast park for the CDP.
It was a little difficult at the start as little instruction was given to my classmate initaily . I realised being a water boy at the DE camp was so easy. I just need to collect water ! But now, being a leader , giving instruction is hard. Luckly , Tian sheng step in to help me and then we eventually manage to build the sandcastle. Lol. hearing Ying ying aka chang ying call me water theif again really make me recalled the DE experience. I still can rememeber Xiu Qi , Garret and I posting the posture of the Toy we place on the sandcastle.It was really a fun experience!
This time round i was WET again just like the last trip there. However i was WEt as i was thrown into the sea ! Or should i say drop into the sea as i was too heavy to be thrown!
AFter that we went to ichiban to have lunch! I had jap lunch for the 4th consecutive days.I think i really gg to go broke soon.
Then after that i went bowling with tian sheng.And he finally took his revenge after i thrash him during the last meeting on our pool game!We played 3 games and the score was 99 -108 95-108 101-120. I lost all. I realised i didn t bowl for about one year plus coming to 2.Tian Sheng i will win u the next time round!

The next day was the Open house for AJC and the farewell assembly for the J2.
My bro edward and his friend jun yan came to my sch for the open house.I introduced my brother to my school mates and brought him around the sch. Some of my school mates dun believe edward is my brother.loll. We really look tt different?Anw my bro said tt AJc is really old. and i think i must agree to tt too. =P

Tml we are getting our promo result back! I am a little worried but it is alrdy over, I hope i can pass my test! Pls Bless me! And Gd luck to everyone! And i wish myself luck too !