I miss the past. I miss the schooling life. With the company of CCA mates, classmates and friends. Time flies. Although I may feel like meeting up with my friends but then the feeling of meeting up but quiet as there is no topic will surface in my mind. Time changes. Sometime I do feel Lonely. But then the person that make the choice of being lonely is me too as i do not want to step out of the comfort zone and increase my social circle. Having headache more often . Can t find the cause. By the way I must kick that bad habit of giving up so easily. Esp the time when i am working out.I can fill the driving force dimming. I am just like living a passive life now. With no aims and direction. Really need the enlightenment or the compass in my life to bring me forward.

Got my first MC in army! June is coming ! 8 more months to ORD! 2010 is the year which i served as a NSF for the whole year. My fitness is dropping. I feel old and beleive I am looked more matured now. Still as usual lack the confidence and faith in the things i do. Somehow i seemed not to know where i am heading too now. Sign up for a german course which will take up my Saturday Afternoon. This saturday will be my 1st lesson. Go Nicholas! You can do it. Btw i am still pondering about my career options. What do i want to be next time. I am a person with NO DREAMS. I do not know what i want and where i am heading. Let s hope the decision i make now will be the right one. Believe in yourself and you will get the sweet success of the fruit in near future.