Wooh finally pass SOC ! Got my passport for 3SGT . I realised something these few days . I look closely at the card my Pri sch teacher gave me before my PSLE . Worry is like a rocking chair it gives you something to do but it won t get you anywhere. Learn to listen to the bird sings and smell the roses. I suddenly realised life isn t that bad for me now . I met failure in army . For example SOC. I struggle to pass it and even feel disappointed and demoralised when i fail to hit the required timing . When i recalled the moment when i gave up half way through the obstacles , it reminded me how weak i really was. I was like virtually dead then . Furthermore being a 'Blur' guy i often am , i feel i don t survive well with my bunk mates as i often drag them down and i have a hard time communicating and going through training with them . But when i met failure i realised actually things aren t that bad. I was just too confident of myself and often assume that i am right and i derseve all the treatment i should get. However i realised i lost an important word in me and the word is HUMBLE. Being humble and modest and the spirte of willing to learn new stuff was what i used to have despite me being blur and slow in learning things. Not sure what factors led me to lose all the important values i have but now i finally see myself more clearly ! This wake up call really hit me hard and wake me up . I feel that i have grown up from the experience i have and hopefully i will become a better person . But i am glad so far i didn t pick up any vice through my army life like smoking and doing illegal stuff. The only thing not so good i may have pick up is my used of vuglar language something when things don t turn out good when i am in army. But then the extend of that is not that serious yet and i dun see myself scolding vuglarities when i am in the civilian world.Things will get better when i go to a new place ! New start and new motivation . First impression last. SO DUN SCREW IT UP! I feel i am a better man now =)