I got my first white hair at the age of 19 . I used to have a strand of white eye brown hair but novwhite hair. The strand of white hair shows the stress i have undergone recently since i entered army. I realised i had been getting more and more stress up recently ever since i got into SISPEC. Probably i not adapting well to the environemnt i in and my interpersonal skills had led me down .

Today had a nice italian meal at my qunt house . today is her birthday! my appetite has not been good recently . Not sure why but is like i eating lesser and lesser. I miss the time I had being a student for the past 10 years. throught the 10 years i met with many obstacles many disappointment , choices hard to make . nevertheless in the 10 years span as a student i have many fond memories .

I am sure i have grown up . At least more grown up then i used to be .

Now i still searching for my dream. What do i really want to acheive in my life .
By the way i have been procristinating for the last few days. That not a good sign.Friends , teachers and family are people that plays an important role in my life. i learn to appreciate them more and realised the importance of my support to them and their support to me in my daily life.No one like to feel that he is alone tackling a problem with no support at all . I hope i can garner more support or feel more support so that i can lead a less stressful life and then NO more growing of white hair at this stage of my life . PS: i feel so paranoid , i only got one strand of white hair and i am making such a big commontion out of it internally .